I never really hated trans people personally but I definitely didn’t see them as whole people for most of my life. I thought they were just broken mentally or something which was easy to rationalize since most trans people (including myself) carry around a fair bit of trauma and mental health issues, often due to how people treat us and how society depicts us. The color I want to add here is that despite having (eventually) accepted that trans people exist and aren’t broken and transitioning is a totally fine thing for someone to do, I didn’t connect the dots that I was trans and that I could transition myself. I finally realize the first time I tried lsd. It just hit me like a truck that I’m a woman and I was the whole time and I want to transition. All the pieces finally came together (there were so many signs) and I just couldn’t ignore it anymore. For me it took that final push even after accepting transness in general, so you can imagine how hard it would be for someone who literally does hate trans people and think we’re broken scum. Whatever they’re experiencing can’t be being trans in their mind because trans people are those broken other people.